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I love unexpected conversations that arise when you least expect them to...
I'm on the struggle. I need someone to talk to and everyone's booked. Even Mom and Dad! They're out on a date. Yeah, the 20 yr old daughter is slaving away in a stuffy 3x3 practice room while after 24 years the parents are on a date. I think it's hilarious that they went to see Guess Who. Not only that but they liked it! Hahaa! I thought that movie was great by the way.
So yeah, I'm "on the struggle" as Kim would say(or should I call her K-Bling"?? Lots of "inner turmoil"...well not really turmoil, just new things going on that I want to bounce off of someone else. Someone with more experience than me. BUt there is no one around right now, so I'm gonna pray. And then get back to the practicing. Recital in 2 days! Aaaaak!

coffee

THE TRUTH: YOU NEED TO DO YOUR HOMEWORK AND YOU'RE GOING CRAZY

This really is deep guys

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Vast, unmeasured, boundless, free!
Rolling as a mighty ocean
In its fullness over me!
Underneath me, all around me,
Is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward
To Thy glorious rest above!

2. O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Spread His praise from shore to shore!
How He loveth, ever loveth,
Changeth never, nevermore!
How He watches o’er His loved ones,
Died to call them all His own;
How for them He intercedeth,
Watcheth o’er them from the throne!

3. O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Love of every love the best!
’Tis an ocean vast of blessing,
’Tis a haven sweet of rest!
O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
’Tis a heaven of heavens to me;
And it lifts me up to glory,
For it lifts me up to Thee!

what are the chances?

So, Friday night I was gettin' it at the hip hop concert (ok ok ok I know I can't really dance, but I was tryin'). I was feeling the rappers and the b-boys and of course the dj's stole my heart... I even met Dj Terrence (I'll just call him that, I really don't know if that was what he called himself...). Then Saturday night I was soaking up an evening of Verdi and Puccini. Not only that but I fell in "love" with a chubby tenor! Oh his voice was exquisite! If I were a man I would want my voice to sound just like that.
PRAISE BREAK!!!!

still goin'

Yeah, so the beat always goes. Hear it? Right now, it's going. But it's slow, it's dragging. It's waiting for inspiration. Liberation? Why do this? Why work so hard and throw so much into it? What is it all for? Who is it all for? Why? As powerful as this thing is, there must be something much more powerful behind it, driving it, inspiring it, reviving it and giving it life. I know Who it's for. How do I offer it? I know Who It's from. How on earth can I say thankyou? How do I let it out! It's in here, in me, but there's no way out. Doors? Windows? Locked? Barred? What? I want to give it freely and with abandon. WIth all that I have I want to give it up. I know it's beautiful, reflective of the One who put it here. Breath-taking, tear-jerking, joyful, mournful, full of life. But it's cloudy and blocked and I need to get it out. The way's not clear. Make it clear...

...it always goes on...

Julliard?

I'd really like to go to Julliard some day...maybe for grad school? But I'd really have to start practicing alot more than I do now...we're talking 5-6 hours per day. And that's a minimum! Eastman would be good too. Now's the time to start preparing, after all, it wasn't raining when Noah started building the ark. If you know what I mean.

I like...

I like...

I like...
...falling asleep to a thunderstorm at night
...getting butterflies when I look at the night sky
...salsa dancing!
...shooting hoops with Steaghvyie
...making faces at friends during orchestra rehersal
...surprises
...having my little sister wake me up in the morning "ARE YOU
AWAKE!!??"
...being friends with my brother
...being loved
...meeting new people
...layovers in airports
...sending packages to people
...getting phone messages from family and friends
...singing and worshipping God
...the Prince of Egypt soundtrack
...confidence
...organizing anything and everything
...a good deep bass sound
...mixing hip hop with classical music (ie. Alicia Keys "Karma")
...a performance offered with abandon, nothing held back
...watching a movie and cleaning my room all alone
...giving endearing nicknames to people I don't know (Trayvon, Moshay,
Twinkle Toes)
...children singing
...trumpet playing
...giving surprises
...hearing stories about peoples childhoods
...going to art galleries and museums
...waking up early and walking to the conserve when I am the only one around
...Sunday nights when my homework is done!

technically challenged

Computers are our friends eh? NOT feelin' it. Come on WORK with me! Sorry for all the confusion y'all. I am a scatterbrain half the time and I forgot my password. The ridiculous thing wouldn't send it to me...sooo I created a new account. All's well that ends well I always say. I'm back and it's all good...for now anyway...