fickle?

I fear that I am fickle. One day my answer is "yes" and the next it's "no" and still another day it's, "well, maybe, I'm not sure...". I am very unsure about things. My ideas and feelings change so frequently, based on seemingly shallow things. In me is the potential to do great harm and to bring pain. I don't want to do that. Not at all. I wonder how sure I have to be in order to take a step? How much of the decision lies in my responsibility? It's a relatively new thing and I am not the only one involved. Responsibility has increased and I think it will continue to do so. Why this sick to my stomach feeling? I'm not scared. I've never been this comfortable and real... that's what scares me. God. My eyes should be on God. I can always give him more. Always. Constantly submitting my confused will to Christ. It's beautiful. I don't know how to explain it. Maybe beautiful isn't the right word. Seeing my fears dissolve because He has drenched them with his redeeming power is incredible. I don't have to make my life happen the way I think it should. I can let go. I don't have to chase after life in order to be fulfilled. He will fill me. How awesome is that? And when I do make mistakes, He lifts me up and I learn something valuable from the experience. Mistakes are inevitable and the Lord redeems them.
So on this path, He will guide me. I am certain of that. I just have to let go.